Some Sunday thoughts by Ira Glass, host of This American Life:
“Nobody tells this to people who are beginners, I wish someone told me. All of us who do creative work, we get into it because we have good taste. But there is this gap. For the first couple years you make stuff, it’s just not that good. It’s trying to be good, it has potential, but it’s not.
But your taste, the thing that got you into the game, is still killer. And your taste is why your work disappoints you. A lot of people never get past this phase, they quit. Most people I know who do interesting, creative work went through years of this. We know our work doesn’t have this special thing that we want it to have.
We all go through this. And if you are just starting out or you are still in this phase, you gotta know its normal and the most important thing you can do is do a lot of work. Put yourself on a deadline so that every week you will finish one story. It is only by going through a volume of work that you will close that gap, and your work will be as good as your ambitions. And I took longer to figure out how to do this than anyone I’ve ever met. It’s gonna take awhile. It’s normal to take awhile. You’ve just gotta fight your way through.”
Sometimes I think, "Why do I continue to struggle with this feeling that I can be better when I could just quit?" Do you ever feel that way?
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watermedia on half sheet Arches (15 x 22 inches)
I guess the best thing is to just not quit. Just keep working at it, going on, getting a little better each time you try. I am soooo much better than I was when I began this journey but sooo much farther away from where I want to be. So...keep on working at it (and stop whining when it gets hard). But sometimes you just want a piece of pie and hot cup of coffee and a good book :)
My goal is to create pieces of work that evoke feelings - good or bad - but not indifferent!! I don't want someone to look at my painting and say, "Wow, that must have taken her a long time to paint that." That, to me, is not art. I really want to convey something of myself - you know, we all have something inside ourselves that is ours alone. I think my "something" is trying to break out - or maybe this is just a phase I'm going through! Time to spend some time cogitating and asking hard questions about what my work means to me and what I want it to mean in the future. I only have another 25-or-so years to go (if I'm lucky and stay healthy) in order to get where I want to be!